So, I'm mighty tired of the last journal being on my page.
I know I havn't posted much in awhile. There's been some scanner drama and whatnot. Plus I really don't have any art classes until next semester. Just schoolwork work schoolwork and laze. Wish it wasn't so, but prioritizing has to come about sometime in one's life. My goal is to figure out how to not get wrapped up in the things that make life-as-it-should-be move on so I can pay attention to the real issues. Like people. Being able to keep an open and sane mind for those people. Stress is the enemy, silence is the power! and when i say silence, i mean somethin like meditation. Even if the loudest, most blairing concert or squeaking kitten or puppy or sight you just can't seem to erase from your memory intrude your squishy brain, you must seek the silence in between the noise! Atleast thats how I think it should be done. And yes, this is relavent, because it brings me back to taking time out for art, which is great theropy if allowed. Lifes an interesting thing.

dang, i really need to get a blog. ~_~;

I havn't disipeared, i promise!
I'm not entirely lazy, i've been experimenting in flash. Or atleast trying to teach myself how to think in the ways of a storyboard. my goodness it's hard for my brain. is that just me?
But i'll tell ya, it's very helpful when trying to make a flash. and also PERSPECTIVE. it hurts my soul D: but it's so darn cool and it's EVERYWHERE. i wish i was one of those ppl who can just see things, store them in their brain, and draw them later. Photographic memory? i suppose

but thats not the point, >_<
I was working on a flash which is coming along painfully slow. i got like 5 seconds and i need nearly a minute and a half. It's gonna be synced with music, thats why it's so hard. i give all you flashcreators creds, it's much harder than expected T_T
but now that i've had my pitty party, i'd like to explain myself.

The Dress-Up Cody game isn't gonna be finished any day soon. I tried to make myself work on it which just resulted in me refusing to do anything at all. dang it i'm stubborn. >:C
So then i began that flash, which is planning to be me and ~Wakman111's kitties. our team is called SCUD (Super Cute Undead Destroyers) and it is also a Russian bomb ^__^ yay SCUD. But once more, we'll see how far that gets. i'm very impressed with how well it looks, but very not impressed with the time it took to make 5 seconds, and those STORYBOARDS, those dang story boards. i hate percise planning @____@
I'm also going to WCYC in 16 days I'M SO VERY EXCITED!! oh goodness, you have no clue, i'd live there if i could. it's gonna rock so hard my mind is imploding at this very second O_o and i'll probably get a little bit of drawing done. it's just hangin out and doin whatever and then bible classes (which are really good) and campfiiiire. There is also a creek ^__^
but what am i saying. i meant to say i got distracted once more and was creating a group picture of me and my friends from WCYC. not all of them of corse, just the main ones. it's already half way done. i barely ever finish anything. but i think cause it's of my wonderful friends i might just finish this one xD <3
AND SO, what i was getting to...
I've been thinking quite often, on and off, the past few months what Hell would be like. No, not to be creepy. No, not so i can be sucked into the evils of it or whatever you may think. Curiosity. Which i hate to give as a reason for anything, but it is. I got a song picked out and a story board i began making. wow i suck at them, but thankfully i'm perserveering. it won't be very dynamic if i ever finish, the drawing wont' be very good at all ._. i'm sorry to be putting myself down so much, but it's where i'm at in my art. i'm at the akward stage. you know, when you're like 11 or somethin? Mostly because my anatomy sucks. i can draw it in individual pictures because i hide the parts idk how to do, as all us artists do. Except for the really amazing motivated ones that study the stuff and get it drawn RIGHT. So i've been studying today, and boy was it fun. mostly cause i found some new artists that make me giggle and are rather AMazERinG!
But yeah. Anatomy, i'm gettin there! but Poses... Don't count on it. thats the one thing i havn't ever really had much hope for. but it all comes with practice practice practice! it'll take me years @_@ but i suppose thats normal. my goodness, why do i keep complaining!
So that was a bit overdun huh? I agree.


Thanks for reading atleast ^__^;
I love you?
!
~+~Sarah~+~

So i hate looking at the same silly journal from like, half a year ago? don't even know.
story time... erm.. thought time?

So i've been realizeing things lately, mostly because of my artist eye, haaaaa. cause i got one of them, right. but really, thank the Lord for it. I look at the clouds every day and observe them. On the way to my 2nd block we walk outside, though they're gone by then. i look anyways in hopes God would put them back up just for me xD But in the morning they're always gorgous.
I walked to the bus stop (across the street) last week, and it was hazy out. The sun was shining down this street perfectly, the rays of sun were shining through fog, so close to me. It's like, 'Ha! shoudln't you been in the sky? silly clouds " i onno, i just found it to be so cool.
Seeing Light.

and then i've been sticking my head out the car window lately. How did i not discover that until now. My dad calls me Fido, but it's all good.
Try it sometime. You can hear the wind, haaa, blows ur eardrums. Reguardless....
so we were on the way to church, and theres this BIG BENDy thing. like where you turn the corner and you fall onto the person next to you, only it lasts like 15 seconds. Still, i was stickin my head out the window, coming right off the highway. and then my dad slowed down for this turn, and i was able to open my eyes. I hadn't opened them for the last like 5 minutes, but as soon as i did it was just the sun brightly shining off this bowl we were turning around (it was elevated as we turned) and all the dead grass and tress with no leaves were the most beautiful thing i've seen in a long time. I think since the wind stopped as we slowed it added an effect. Cause then i was brought back into reality hearing my brother argue to my parents, but i was still seeing this beautiful sight. One more sensation, i know ur bored of this, but notice it's like... freezing outside, plus it's early in the morning, my face was really cold going 70 miles an hour O_o so when we slowed down my face got really warm.
RECAP.
Eyes and ears opening to a reality,
Shineing sun on beautiful things,
Warmth drastically changing,
and with the slowing down almost made things go in slow motion.
Truely cool.

Wow you read all this.
Maybe in my next journal i'll post more sensations, just to share weather you like it or not xD
i got a heck of a lot more.

well thanx for reading ^_^ go hug a tree. eat a chili cheese frito. i sure wish i could. dad left me the empty bag :/

~+~Sarah~+~

Chyeah... so this is only here cause i'm tired of looking at the old journal. I guess i could rant about my current life, why not.

My tablet and programs and such have been installed onto my old computer that i played CoD UO on. it got ruined and virusy and so daddy got its memory wiped. so now its alll NEW and i can use it. sadly theres still timers on it, so if it gets turned off, i gotta beg for it to be back on. shut off the screen at night so parents don't know its on, all that stuff.
as it is very annoying, atleast i get my computer *huggggggggggs computer* its not the fastest thing on earth but its how a computer should be!
so yeah... the fact that its in the basement and i don't have people constantly walking around and talking to me upstairs... in the living room... on the virusy laptop... makes me even more artsy. cuase no one can watch my failures ^_^ *wooooot*
so if i can keep gettin on here, i'll likely have an arsonel of work, good and bad, a lot of practice stuff, because i really don't know what i'm doing

Oh yeah, i got a job now. as of about a month and a half ago. huzzah for grocery stores! I face things ^_^ bring em up front, i'm good at it. as a child i would do that and hope ppl would hire me because i found it fun. but then i also have to say hello to every costumer that walks by. i'm not social, i get scared when someone comes up to me and asks me where the French Onion Fries are. my gosh. and yes, they're in isle 7, and yes they're at the bottom shelf in an akward spot of a product i've never heard of before but people ask for every day. but why can't i remember when someone asks me O_o for almost 2 years i've been working at talking to people, and this is the hardest challenge yet O_O cause you know, at the end of January i'm probably gonna be a cashier. then i'll HAVE to talk to people.

but why rant about that... i'm on winter break from school, i got most of my Christmas shopping done, now i just need some Dr Pepper and commence the drawing. fwahcha! >_< *epic pose with a spork* i am also quite hungry (;._.)

Stolen from my cuz <3
I FEAR:

[ ] The Dark
[ ] Staying Single Forever
[ ] Being a Parent
[ ] Giving Birth
[ ] Being Myself in Front of Others
[ ] Open Spaces
[ ] Closed Spaces
[ ] Heights
[ ] Dogs
[ ] Birds
[ ] Fish
[ ] Spiders
[ ] Plants

Total: 0

[X] Being Touched
[ ] Fire
[ ] Deep Water
[ ] Snakes
[ ] Silk
[ ] The Ocean
[X] Failure
[X] Success (depends on what i'm succeeding in)
[ ] Thunder/Lightning
[ ] Frogs/Toads
[ ] My Boyfriend's/Girlfriend's Father
[ ] My Boyfriend's/Girlfriend's Mother
[ ] Rats
[X] Jumping from High Places
[ ] Snow

Total: 4

[ ] Rain
[ ] Wind
[ ] Crossing Hanging Bridges
[ ] Death
[ ] Heaven
[ ] Being Robbed
[X] Falling
[ ] Clowns
[ ] Dolls
[X] Large Crowds of People
[ ] Men
[ ] Women
[ ] Having Great Responsibilities
[X] Doctors
[X] Tornadoes

Total: 8

[ ] Hurricanes
[x] Incurable Diseases
[ ] Sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] Ghosts
[ ] Poverty
[ ] Halloween
[X] School (Or atleast most of the people there make it scary)
[ ] Trains
[ ] Odd Numbers
[ ] Even Numbers
[ ] Being Alone
[ ] Becoming Blind
[ ] Becoming Deaf
[X] Growing Up

Total: 11

[ ] Creepy Noises in the Night
[ ] Bee Stings
[ ] Not Accomplishing My Dreams/Goals
[ ] Needles
[ ] Blood
[ ] Dinosaurs
[ ] The Welcome Mat
[ ] High Speed
[ ] Throwing Up
[ ] Falling in Love
[ ] Super Secrets
[ ] Fear

Total: 11

30+: Counseling is strongly recommended.
20+: You're paranoid.
10 - 20: You're normal.
10-: You're fearless.
0: LIAR. D: <